Guard your heart with all diligence....

"Guard your heart with all diligence, for out of it flows the issues of life" Proverbs 4:23

Of recent I have been listening to Chaz B on inspiration Fm 92.3 and I must say everyday I am blessed. When my parents first told me about him almost a year ago, I was not interested. They would come home from work and begin to discuss the issues said, I just didnt want to hear. Truth be told I didn't want to hear the truth. I was scared that one day he would speak on a topic that would hit me hard and I really wasn't ready to listen to anyone's opinion. But since listening to him, I have found peace and understanding and this sort of connection with him and his ministry. He speaks the truth and backs it up with the word of God and although I may not always agree with him, I respect him and his opinion.
I have been on this journey since my ex broke up with me almost 3 years ago to find myself and slowly I am beginning to discover me and discover myself in Christ. It has been a very hard journey, I have come from being so angry and broken to restoration and forgiveness. I was young, he was a lot older and I didn't really understand much, all I knew was that I loved him and I gave him everything I had.
I remember those nights I cried my heart out in pain, it was too much for me. I used to beg God to take away the memory of him. LOL it felt like the more I prayed that prayer the more I remembered him. I was hurt and I lost my way. I began to live life like an empty vessel but God stood by me. As I moved further from him, he's
Faithfulness increased. And he was all too happy to receive me when I came running back. He restored me, he took away my hurt, he reminded me he was still my Father and he was going to be with me till the end.
I just want to take this opportunity to thank him, for the past 21 years he has been so faithful to me and my family . he has been our God, our help in ages past, our shield, our provider, our comforter, our everything. What would I do without you Lord.

So almost 3 years have gone by. March 18th 2010 isn't just the day he broke up with me, it was the day God broke me so that I could be given a new identity in Christ.
So far it has been tough, but I have let go of the hurt and the pain and found what no man could ever give or take away from me. It is a gradual process and I am getting there but looking back at where I am coming from, I am closer to my purpose and destiny than ever.